Monday, March 31, 2014

BROKEN HEARTS SUCK, RIGHT?


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Afternoon, y'all!

It took me about thirty-two (32) years, give or take, to actually listen and hear the lyrics of a song. Somehow instinctively I knew what the songs meant.  In addition, I could sing you the melody and harmony of most songs, but the words...forget about it!

Reflection.  Coming from a happy place this week, I wanted to share one of my favorite "sad but poignant" songs with you all.  It's always interesting (at least for me) to reflect on these words whilst I am in a state of happiness (or at least much closer to contentment than sadness).  These words are incredible.  I lend them here for you -- to reflect -- whenever you want.

Broken hearts are the worst!!  We all know what it feels like.  We all know the feeling of wanting to find the nearest ditch to politely assemble our bodies into a fetal-like position.  All that said, we must be grateful for when we are NOT in heart break, when we are NOT mourning a loss, and when we are NOT beyond stressed out at work.  There's so much in gratitude.  I'm still learning and I'll share more in the future.

"When A Heart Breaks" (Click Here for Video)

Are you listening yet?  Only when you are ready...continue...

I woke up this morning
And I heard the news
I know the pain of a heartbreak
I don't have answers
And neither do you
I know the pain of a heartbreak

This isn't easy
This isn't clear
And you don't need Jesus
Til you're here
Then confusion and the doubts you had
Up and walk away
They walk away
When a heart breaks

I heard the doctor
But what did he say
I knew I was fine about this time yesterday
I don't need answers
I just need some peace
I just need someone who could help me get some sleep
Who could help me get some sleep

This isn't easy
This isn't clear
And you don't need Jesus
Til you're here
Then confusion and the doubts you had
Up and walk away
They walk away
When a heart breaks
When a heart breaks
When a heart breaks
Oh, when a heart breaks

This isn't easy
This isn't clear
And you don't need Jesus
Til you're here
Then confusion and the doubts you had
Up and walk away
They walk away
When a heart breaks

Final Thoughts:
1)  Have you been watching your vernacular?  I have and it's astonishing how much better I feel all the time, especially when I capture myself saying, "I cannot wait..." -- I cancel it out and quickly say, I am sooo excited for...
2)  My BFFs, S&K, gave birth on Thursday evening late to a beautiful baby girl, Lily.  She's the cutest.  I wish them all the wonderful blessings and love.  They will be amazing parents!
3)  Once I get a bit more established and/or a new amazing full time day-JOB, I will start to share more stories about my mediumship endeavors.  It's truly never a dull moment...as you'll see!
4)  The Walking Dead.  OMG.  I am soooo excited for Season Five, which starts this October, 2014.
5) I am going to visit my favorite (and only) niece and nephew this weekend.  Woohoo!!!


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Monday, March 24, 2014

I HOPE TO ACHIEVE SO MUCH IN NINETY-EIGHT YEARS AS THIS WOMAN...


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If you visited to Google.com on Monday, March 24, you probably noticed that Ms. Dorothy Irene Height was being honored as her 102nd birthday.  I am often intrigued by their tributes.  Monday was no let down.  She was/is a powerhouse!

Dorothy Irene Height (March 24, 1912 - April 20, 2010) - Five facts you need to know.

1.  She was the President of the National Council for Negro Women!
2.  She was kicked out of Barnard because she was black.
(Apparently, she was accepted, but before the semester began, she was advised that they had already filled the black student quota. [Woah!]  So, she applied to New York University, where she earned a Bachelors and a Master's degree.  Clearly, their loss.)
3.  She won the Presidential Medal of Freedom and the Congressional Gold Medal!
4.  She stood next to Martin Luther King Jr. for his iconic "I Had a Dream" Speech!  [Sooo cool]
5.  Obama called her "The Godmother of the Civil Rights Movement"!

For a little bit more about her, visit this beautiful article at Heavy.com.

Take a deep breath.  What have you done today?  The above makes me feel like I have soooo much more to do in my life.  At the same time it overwhelms me and fills me with some feelings of frustration, it also gives me hope that it might take me fifty (50) more years to accomplish even a fraction of what Ms. Dorothy Irene Height achieved in her incredible life of ninety-eight years.

It reminds me that patience is so important and, lately, I have had so little.


FINAL THOUGHTS:
1)  I found a mentor to help me with my mediumship.  I am so excited.  She is wonderful!
2)  This weekend I went to Ojai, Ca and Santa Barbara, CA.  It was AWESOME!  And I had one of the most delicious meals ever at The Blue Tavern.  It was also one of the most enjoyable with readings, laughter, and some old friends and some new ones.  KDubbs - my intention was right on!
3)  Remember, the Best is ALWAYS yet to come.  I don't say it enough.


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Tuesday, March 18, 2014

WHEN LIFE IS TOO SERIOUS, LAUGH!

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Hi everyone!  I've noticed that I have been very serious of late.  Despite the fact that I have crazy dreams from time to time -- an incredible and much needed break from the realities of this life.  For example, last night I dreamt that Anne Hathaway and I were the best of friends and both she and Mandy Moore came to my surprise birthday party (September 25th) at my parent's beautiful lake house in New Hampshire.  Oh did, I mention, we arrived in a Lamborghini!!  Clearly, my mind has some fun when I close my eyes and rest in my never-never land.

Lately, I have been so serious.  When you are so serious, I believe we miss things.  We miss opportunities. We miss witnessing beautiful things.  This morning on my way to work, for some reason, I noticed the sweet things on the road.  I witnessed cars waving other cars into their row in extreme traffic.  I noticed the crazy people walking around the gayborhood.  Lastly, I noticed the various people in their cars bopping along to their favorite tunes -- like myself.

I've just been too damn serious of late.  I know that, eventually, I will find the means to be able to write my books and practice my mediumship "readings" all the time.  This will come.  I've just been so darn frustrated that it's happening at a snail's pace on God's time and not my own.  I am taking some majorly deep breaths today.

For today, I decided to lighten up your load a bit.  Here are three friggin' hilarious videos.  Warning, you might cackle a bit, so close the door when you view these.

Born to Create Drama:  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pzl86IjTpHI&feature=youtu.be

Chubby Indian Kid Dancing:  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HUcPeMs871k

Rodent Pranks (no sound necessary):  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eMwaA4bqtDc


FINAL THOUGHTS:
1)  Trixie Van Goat (my 2-year old Nigerian Dwarf Dairy Goat) will be having kids within the next 3 weeks.
2)  As an update to last week, the Company finally paid me the full outstanding.  Huge sigh of relief.
3)  Email me at sethsantoro@mac.com to schedule your "Reading" while I am still practicing and prices are low.  This can be done over Skype or Gchat as well.

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Monday, March 10, 2014

I ALWAYS WANT TO MAKE MY DAD PROUD...Oops!


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Last week I did something I probably shouldn't have done.  I pride myself on making the absolute best decisions.  I research every option.  I think about all of the outcomes, the repercussions, and the feelings.  At the end of the following day, if I still feel "good" about the choice, then I know I made the best choice for me.  This is how I usually make all my decisions.  A little bit of heart.  A little bit of mind.  Sounds balanced, right?

Ahhh...the life of a consultant.  It's usually very fun and convenient.  As most of you know, it can be feast or famine.  When it's feast, life is marvelous.  When it's famine, it's not so nice - traveling is scarce, dinners are cheap, and life is definitively less free.  

What happened?  Seven months is a long time to be constantly waiting for payment, but that was my situation.

For seven months, I had been waiting for payments from this one company I chose to contract with from late August through late December.  Just to give you an idea, I waited fifty (50) days for my first payment.  Every two weeks thereafter, it was a constant battle to get money and, supposedly, I was making some good money with them.  However, I wouldn't have known, because they were basically paying me a week's worth of wages every two weeks, which always kept me in the red.  Not fun.  Scarcity was my life and I felt trapped.

With regard to this situation, I did seek advice from friends and family members.  They all said basically the same thing: 1) Stop working for them until they pay you; 2) Get another job; and 3) You're never going to get your money!

Understood.  But, I had hope.  I knew this Company would one day step up and do the right thing.  I knew they wanted to pay me, they just never had the funds to do so.  I mostly wanted to keep working for them because one of their clients was fabulous and, at some point in the future, there might have been a great full time flexible potential with said client.  So, I stayed through the first of this year.

Around that same time, they sent me a check for a substantial amount of money but requested that I not cash it until they gave me the green light.  Two weeks later, I thought I received the go ahead to deposit.  Turns out, there was a little miscommunication and, as a result, they needed me to deposit some of that money back into THEIR account.  I was beyond irritated, but I figured since they still owed me a significant amount of money, it would show some good faith and understanding toward their situation.  (At that point, I believe I should have taken the money and ran!)

I spoke to my father about the above-mentioned situation and he was very pleased with how I handled that situation.  He thought that my long-term strategy/foresight was in-tact and that I had made an adult decision.  Woohoo!  I always LOVE to hear that my parents are proud of my decisions. 

This time around, however, not so much.

Approximately four weeks ago, they mailed me my final check for the outstanding amount of money, once again, with the understanding that they would give me the green light to deposit the check.  They trusted me.  It was torture holding onto that check for those couple of weeks.  Again, I sought advice from friends and family.  The consensus being go to the bank, and, if the funds are available in the account, deposit the check, once and for all, and be done with it.  

BTW, they weren't giving me any updates until I started texting/emailing them every other day. When they finally got the hint, unfortunately, it was empty words after empty promises after empty emails after empty texts.  "We're getting money in any day now!" or "We're just waiting on a couple more checks."  I wanted with all of my heart to believe them.  I imagine they wanted to be as done with me as I wanted to be with them.

I was fed up.  I had had it.  I therefore visited the bank a few times over the past week, and finally, last Tuesday, the bank advised that there were enough funds in their account to cover the check.  In a moment of complete desperation and vindication (or so I thought), I deposited the check.  It felt weird.  Though I felt strongly that I had finally made a stand for myself, simultaneously, I also felt kind of icky.  This was a little out of character for me.   I was angry.  I was at my wits end!

I kinda wish that I could have stepped back from the situation and asked myself what would Jesus do or what would Buddha do?  Yo, I consider myself to be a very spiritual person, but sometimes, you just gotta do what you gotta do, right?

The next day, the Company, clearly, was not very happy with me.  A surprise to me, they advised that they had gone negative in their account.  They wrote some not-so-nice words to me, attacking my character and my professionalism.  I found this incredibly ironic given my past seven months basically begging for money over and over.   What was I thinking working for them for so long?

It was later that day when I spoke to my parents on the phone.  They both listened to my story.  My mother was happy that the situation was now done and suggested I start to put this horrid incident behind me.  My father, on the other hand, was silent.  Uh oh.  I knew what that meant.  Having been down this same road various times himself, he was not overly thrilled with my moment of desperation and thought I could have handled the situation better.  It was clear when he said, let me know if the check clears, that this certainly was not his first time at the rodeo.  He knew better and he expected me to know better.

Long story short.  The check bounced.  I accrued more fees.  My dad was right!  Oh what fun!  Apparently, they needed to cover other expenses instead of me.  No comment.

The point here is...perhaps when we are feeling extra desperate, we could all take an extra moment to consider what will make our father/mother/nephew proud.  That just might save you the hassle.  It just might save you some fees and it just might save you their disappointment.

I really do believe I am a good person.  Hell, I think I'm a fantastic person.  I am kind to others, honest, sincere, and genuine.  I guess this week's lesson to myself is that I am human too.  We all make mistakes.  I probably should have waited one or two more weeks.  Oh well, right?  We live and learn.

When I'm at the gates of heaven (or whatever you like to call it), something tells me I am not going to be thinking of this Company and my moment of desperation.  Call it a hunch!


FINAL THOUGHTS:
1)  Re: Malaysia Flight 370.  My thoughts and prayers are with the family and friends.  I'm just curious, however, why hasn't a famous medium come to the scene and offered their services?  Perhaps I'm a little partial, but still, they could definitely help out!
2)  With regard to the above situation, the Company still tells me they are going to me as soon as they have the funds available.  Learning my lesson, I have now given them until the end of this month to pay me, otherwise, I will seek legal action.  I am enthusiastic to sue two attorneys.  I have never lost a case yet!
3)  I also always want to make my mother proud and my nephew proud.  Does anyone else feel that way?

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Monday, March 3, 2014

IF WE ARE WHAT WE EAT, THEN I'M SCARED TO SAY... WE ARE WHAT WE THINK TOO!


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If, in theory, we are what we eat, then don't you think it stands to reason that, we are what we think and say?  I know, it's a bit scary, right?  Just given my own vernacular and my own though patterns, I have now decided to focus on changing what thoughts I think and what I say to people.

I used to think this type of stuff was all foo-foo and mumbo-jumbo.  However, over the last week or so, I've found that my energy/spirit is a little bit happier, a little bit more hopeful, and a little bit more playful due to the small shifts in thought and speech.  And who doesn't want that??

Think about this:  If you are constantly stressing over finances, where is the hope in that?  Where is the happiness in that?  And where is the playfulness in that?  Believe me, I've had my struggles over the past few months with financial stresses indeed.  I have slowly started changing my obsessive song-and-dance with regard to debts and bills, and I must report that things have started to shift for me.  Suggestions and ideas to save money have magically appeared and/or happened AND my spirit is a wee bit lighter and more jovial.  Let me assure you, it didn't just happen over night.  Nope.  This is definitely a practice, and, if it takes 28 consecutive days to form a new habit, I'm approaching the finish line.  I hope.

If you consider this concept from a manifesting perspective and, we can agree that, right now, are manifesting our future paths based upon our current thoughts, emotions, and actions today, then, I would say, the majority of us are screwed!  Let's slow down, become more aware, and REMOVE the negative chatter and banter amongst ourselves and our friends.

Here are some tips and tricks to help get us all started:

1) Watch your Language!
    A) Stop Should'ing on Yourself!   Remove the clutter and judgment in your quotidian tongue.  No more Shoulds.
    B) Trying.  Trying is stupid!  Instead of trying, just do it!  Instead of "I'll try and make it tonight for dinner."  How about "I'll do my best!" or, god forbid, "I will be there!"
     C) I cannot wait...!  No more, I can'ts!  How about I'm excited to, or I am ecstatic for?  Me, myself, and I am certainly guilty of this lingo on a daily basis especially when I say I cannot wait to have children or  I cannot wait to be on the NY Times Best Seller List.  How about if I say, I am sooo excited for children or I am sooo exited for the day when I'm on the NY Times Best Seller List.  Though perhaps insignificant to most, this tiny new little version has more power than it had previously.
    D)  I'm sorry.   I say this all the time.  Some have said, it's like apologizing for your existence.  I apologize for EVERYTHING!  Bumping into someone.  Speaking over someone.  Blah-Blah.  As of three days ago, I am no longer apologizing for everything.  It is not easy...at all, but I'm doing it!
     E)  Have to vs. Get to!  While we are on the subject of watching your language, let's not forget the good old, "Ugh...I have to do laundry tonight" or "I have to stop by this party for two hours on Saturday."  It denotes a lot of dread, and I love how we believe that by stating the above-mentioned phrases, we are going to shift the energy and have a great time.  (Note the sarcasm).  You never know what might happen with the laundry.  You might find a twenty dollar bill in your pants.  (I love it when that happens!)  Or, you might go to that party and meet your next someone special.  Instead, perhaps say, I "get to" or I "look forward to".

At the end of the day, the above tips/tricks may sound like little changes, but, I assure you, they are not.  Do it (I was going to say, Try It! - Tsk Tsk!) for one week and let me know the results whether amazing or not-so-amazing!

2) Be Careful What You Think today!
Be careful what you think today, 'cause it may haunt you tomorrow and the next day and the next day and so on.  It is a proven fact (spiritually anyway) that the thoughts that you are thinking today effect the thoughts, moods, and energies of tomorrow, the next day, and beyond.  Start thinking better thoughts NOW!

That said, we are human, after all.  We will all become frustrated and impatient from time to time.  Do you have to stay there (in that mood) or vacation there?  How quickly can you let it go?  How quickly can you shift your own thoughts?

3) The Best is Always Yet To Come.
I know I say this again and again, but it's definitively the one thought that always brings me a ray of sunshine-hope.  This phrase recognizes the present (where I am) yet it infers tomorrow is a new day.  Start repeating this to yourself and see where you land.

Confession: I have my days of utter frustration and impatience, still.  Duh!  The thought that usually helps shift the money-pit mood is thinking about the future and what I look forward to and, truly, that has made quite a bit of difference in my life...or at least for the past few weeks.  


FINAL THOUGHTS:
1) The Monday morning glum wasn't so bad this time around.  I could feel the icky feelings percolating but there was no way I was going to let them out today.
2)  As for my journey into Mediumship, I am still practicing, but no longer doing freebies.  After three and a half hours with a great man (well...him and his late father), the other night, I was a little exhausted.  Contact me if you or a loved one of yours might need a "reading".
3)  If you have time to read a five-minute feel good article about a boy-going-blind's bucket-list story, read here.

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