Monday, May 5, 2014


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Hello There!

Over the past few months, I have been inundated with messages from spirits of deceased loved ones.  Some have made me weep.  Others have made me laugh.  This week, I wanted to share some insights from the other side that just make sense!  I hope to have a lot more of these types of blog posts in the future.  It might be time to start hashing on the crazy and awesome readings that have been going on in my life.

1)  Cherish and Enjoy the time left with those we love.
I know it might not feel like it, but it truly is a gift to have a finite amount of time left with someone you love.  Cherish each and every moment.  Reminisce about the fun times and the more challenging times. Be grateful for the memories, the love, and their influence on your life.  Share your secrets, your dreams, and your mistakes.  This finite time is precious and time is always of the essence.

2)  Most souls travel together in and out of lives.
Have you ever felt like the people in your lives, your family or your best friends must have been with you in a previous life?  The more I speak with people and their deceased loved ones, the more I hear that these individuals/souls have been intertwined and entangled for four, five, sometimes six generations of soul evolution.  I love believing that the closest people to me in this life have been around for the past several lives.

3)  You are living your purpose!
It may be slowly evolving (like it is for yours truly), or it may have been kicked into hyper-gear from an early age, either way, you are on your path.  If you believe that prior to being born again, we choose the life lessons, the hardships, and the major mistakes we overcome in this physical existence, then we also must believe that our purpose was clearly strategized and planned as well.  How are you doing on that purpose?  Do you think you are on the right track?  I like to believe (especially on those bad or sad days) that I am exactly where I am supposed to be.  I believe this so much that I look for "signs" from the universe that I am on the appropriate journey.  It might be seeing the number 24 somewhere (my favorite number) or hearing a song on the radio that I was just speaking about not two hours earlier.  If you look for signs to appear, trust me, they will. 

Make every moment count.  Live your life to the best and fullest possible.  It can be frustrating at times, for sure, but doing your best and trusting that your purpose is always there can sometimes bring you farther than you may ever have expected.

4)  Who do you "pray to"  or "make requests" from?  God?  Angels?  Your Spirit guides?
Whomever it is, it doesn't matter.  As long as you are asking, wanting, and realizing those requests, prayers, or wants.   I wake up each and every day (lately) asking for specifics on what I want.  Lately, I have been asking for the means to be able to write and perform more readings.  After five minutes of asking/praying for things, I then start to feel gratitude for my life.  Some days more than others.  It's a daily practice -- for everybody.  I swear that being grateful is key to inviting more of the same into our lives.  I am a very blessed person and you are too!

5)  Be the better person always.
This past week, I had an encounter with someone who didn't have to be the better person.  He would have had every right to look the other way or simply avoid me.  Long story short, I had a brief affair with his ex-boyfriend while they were in the process of breaking up.  I know.  I know.  Not my proudest moment.  The point is that he has ALWAYS been sweet to me, after he confronted me one year after the not-so-smart and brief love affair.  Good for him!   I see him occasionally, as he now lives in the gay-borhood, and I am always pleasantly surprised by his kindness, generosity, and at the end of the day, being the bigger person.  Those are the type of people I want to be around.

6)  Always remember the good times.
Spirits, at some point in every reading, point out a time when everyone was laughing, everyone was smiling, and everyone seemed happy.  I see now that this is how they want to be remembered.  They don't want to be remembered for their slow and steady decline, their cancer escapades, or their violent deaths.  Nope.  Instead, they always bring to my attention, and therefore to your attention, the fun times.  Let's save ourselves some grief and remember those times as well.

7)  Rest assured, our deceased loved ones see and know everything that's happening in your life.
Believe me, they know everything.  They know that you painted that fence in the cheapest most ugly manner.  They know that you finally threw away that box of stuff that has been by the door for months. They know that you placed that beautiful red envelope to rest with them at the funeral.  Even though they aren't physically around, spiritually, they know everything.  Spirits are fun, man!   They joke, they embarrass, and they make fun of my clients all the time (during readings).  Please know that they know!

Lots more incredible information and insights to come.  This is only the beginning.  Stay tuned...  

1)  I am about to read a good friend of mine and his sister.  I'm a little nervous.  Once I let go of my attachment to giving them the best reading EVER, I can relax and actually move forward with the reading.  Wish me luck!
2) My new HR Consulting business venture is off to a great start (with a couple hiccups) and I look forward to unveiling our website to you in the near future.
3) Be the better person this week.  If someone cuts you off (while driving), perhaps they are having the worst day.  Last week, I'm sure I cut off someone, and I was not having my best week.  We all have off-days and off-weeks.  Give them the benefit of the doubt this week.
4)  Slow down and breathe a bit more this week.  Find solace in your breathe when everyone else is completely kinetically chaotic around you.  This is my mantra this week.

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Monday, April 21, 2014


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Here's a little glimpse into my life of late.  I hope you enjoy.  If you have questions at the end, feel free to ask me in private.

Sometimes, all you need is someone to pick up on the other end of the line and everything starts to feels better.

Today, I received a very unique phone call from a young woman I met last month.  As soon as I laid down on her massage table, and I started receiving information about this woman's life and past.  Bottom line, the spirit of her un-born four-year-old son was visiting with me while she was giving me a glorious massage mixed with a little bit of Reiki.  He gave me all sorts of personal and detailed information about this woman.  Mind you, I knew nothing about this woman going into the session, but it was a whole different story on the way out of the room.  Turns out, she was a little bit clairvoyant, but completely freaked out by her own gifts.  I definitely resonated hearing that.

We chit-chatted throughout the entire session which means I unfortunately didn't get quite the relaxing massage I had anticipated, however, this young woman received the messages she was supposed to.  It's all relative, right?  At the end of the massage, she gave me a few hugs (an incredible occupational perk) and I handed her my card.  I told her if she ever needed something or wanted to speak to someone, I would be honored to help her.  Fast forward four or five weeks until today.

Ring. Ring.  (On my little iphone.)
"Hello?  This is Seth!"  (which I truly believe is such a silly way to answer the phone, but that's neither here nor there)
"Hi Seth, this is J."  (I had no idea who it was... except I knew the area code.)
"I'm good, how are you?" (I thought I might know who it was if I heard a few more words, but to no avail. )
"Not too good!"  (I paused for a second.  I vaguely recognized the voice.) 
Finally, I had to ask, "How do I know you?"
"I'm the girl that gave you a massage at the Oaks a few weeks ago and you and I are alike in a great deal of ways.  You said if I ever needed a mentor to call you.  You still interested?"
She sounded defeated.  I could feel her energy through the phone that she was having quite a tough time.
"Of course, I meant what I said!  I'll do my best!  What's going on?" (Wow!  She actually took me up on my crazy stranger offer!)
"My grandmother died yesterday, have you felt her?"
"!  Well...that stinks!"
"I also felt a great deal of pain a few minutes ago and then a bunch of sadness, grief, and heartache pretty much all at the same time.  My palms started sweating and my heart started pounding...what do you think it was?"
I thought to myself, An anxiety attack??
She continued, "I've never felt anything so strong!  At the exact moment, I thought of you and felt like you were the only thing that saved me from that terrible moment or two!"
"Glad I could help??  Wow!  That's kind of amazing in a weird yet spiritual way!"  (Hey!  I'm adjusting to a new lifestyle of spirituality and mentorship - in that world - is still new to me.  Gimme a break!)
"Do you know what happened?  It felt like my whole world had ended yet at the same time, it felt as if all my pain and suffering were over!"

She didn't even give me to time to respond before she immediately went on to advise that, ironically, I was the last massage she had given, for she injured her hand shortly thereafter AND that since her mother left for Mexico, her mother could not return for quite some time, if ever.  That meant, she had no baby-sitter for her three children and she was currently on Workers' Comp leave (meaning, very little income), and Workers' Comp hadn't paid her anything yet.  It was a living nightmare.  She paused.  I literally thought this poor young woman was going to have a nervous break down on the phone with me.

I started having trouble breathing and took that as an extreme caution/sign to advise her to calm down, breathe, and take one thing at a time, one day at a time.

I completely understood, however, what had happened with her mother and grandmother.  Somehow, this actually made complete sense to me.  After inquiring on a few more questions, to which she replied that her mother was attending the funeral and her grandmother might have been in some pain before she died at the ripe old age of 99, I pieced the puzzle together.  Given the fact that J was chiefly overwhelmed by all of the events occurring simultaneously, I felt as if she let her spiritual guard down.  Therefore, she opened up the space to feel her mother's pain, grief, and sorrow at the funeral which was, as she confirmed a bit later, the exact same time when she had her "anxiety/emotional" on-set.  Additionally, it turns out, J had had recurring dreams that her grandmother was going to die over the past few months, and I felt this episode was her grandmother's way of telling her she no longer needed to worry about her pain or suffering.  After all, when you die, all that pain and suffering is released and there is only peace.

J understood.  Well, not right away, but soon there after.  She was pleased but also perplexed as she had earlier explained complicated relationships with both of those women throughout the years.  I have a hard time explaining that type of phenomenon as I don't entirely understand the spiritual bonds between family members even if warring on the physical plane here.  Who really knows, right?

The conversation went on, but then it became more a life coaching session than a "Help me" spiritual melt-down conversation.  The details of which are inconsequential.  End result, however, is she really could only think to call me and she really just wanted someone to pick up on the other end of the line,  to listen, and preferably someone who could understand and explain perhaps what had happened.  

More interesting though, I encouraged her to set a boundary for the emotional space between her and her mother.  In other words, thank your mother for sharing, but her grief is her grief just like her pain is her pain.  There is no need to share with you.  I also invited her to acknowledge and be grateful to her grandmother for her last parting gift.  It might sound strange to you, but I believe it's what she really needed to do in order to clear the space for her to focus on what she really needs to focus on...who's going to take care of her children once she returns to work.  Sometimes you have to clear up the spiritual gook to allow space for the practical and earthly decisions to be made.

Again, sometimes you just need someone to pick up on the other side of the line and listen.  I really hope that she found some solace in today's conversation.  I am doing my best to not be sooo attached to the results of whatever my messages are for the person sitting across from me or on the phone with me (as the case may be).  It is what it is.  My messages - you can take 'em or leave 'em.  Your choice!

Listen better.  You'll be glad you did.  :)

1)  My apologies for being MIA for the past two weeks.  I have been super busy with a new client and a new HR Consulting business venture.
2)  Trixie Van Goat should be having her kids any day now.  Keep your fingers crossed!

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Monday, March 31, 2014


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Afternoon, y'all!

It took me about thirty-two (32) years, give or take, to actually listen and hear the lyrics of a song. Somehow instinctively I knew what the songs meant.  In addition, I could sing you the melody and harmony of most songs, but the words...forget about it!

Reflection.  Coming from a happy place this week, I wanted to share one of my favorite "sad but poignant" songs with you all.  It's always interesting (at least for me) to reflect on these words whilst I am in a state of happiness (or at least much closer to contentment than sadness).  These words are incredible.  I lend them here for you -- to reflect -- whenever you want.

Broken hearts are the worst!!  We all know what it feels like.  We all know the feeling of wanting to find the nearest ditch to politely assemble our bodies into a fetal-like position.  All that said, we must be grateful for when we are NOT in heart break, when we are NOT mourning a loss, and when we are NOT beyond stressed out at work.  There's so much in gratitude.  I'm still learning and I'll share more in the future.

"When A Heart Breaks" (Click Here for Video)

Are you listening yet?  Only when you are ready...continue...

I woke up this morning
And I heard the news
I know the pain of a heartbreak
I don't have answers
And neither do you
I know the pain of a heartbreak

This isn't easy
This isn't clear
And you don't need Jesus
Til you're here
Then confusion and the doubts you had
Up and walk away
They walk away
When a heart breaks

I heard the doctor
But what did he say
I knew I was fine about this time yesterday
I don't need answers
I just need some peace
I just need someone who could help me get some sleep
Who could help me get some sleep

This isn't easy
This isn't clear
And you don't need Jesus
Til you're here
Then confusion and the doubts you had
Up and walk away
They walk away
When a heart breaks
When a heart breaks
When a heart breaks
Oh, when a heart breaks

This isn't easy
This isn't clear
And you don't need Jesus
Til you're here
Then confusion and the doubts you had
Up and walk away
They walk away
When a heart breaks

Final Thoughts:
1)  Have you been watching your vernacular?  I have and it's astonishing how much better I feel all the time, especially when I capture myself saying, "I cannot wait..." -- I cancel it out and quickly say, I am sooo excited for...
2)  My BFFs, S&K, gave birth on Thursday evening late to a beautiful baby girl, Lily.  She's the cutest.  I wish them all the wonderful blessings and love.  They will be amazing parents!
3)  Once I get a bit more established and/or a new amazing full time day-JOB, I will start to share more stories about my mediumship endeavors.  It's truly never a dull you'll see!
4)  The Walking Dead.  OMG.  I am soooo excited for Season Five, which starts this October, 2014.
5) I am going to visit my favorite (and only) niece and nephew this weekend.  Woohoo!!!

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Monday, March 24, 2014


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If you visited to on Monday, March 24, you probably noticed that Ms. Dorothy Irene Height was being honored as her 102nd birthday.  I am often intrigued by their tributes.  Monday was no let down.  She was/is a powerhouse!

Dorothy Irene Height (March 24, 1912 - April 20, 2010) - Five facts you need to know.

1.  She was the President of the National Council for Negro Women!
2.  She was kicked out of Barnard because she was black.
(Apparently, she was accepted, but before the semester began, she was advised that they had already filled the black student quota. [Woah!]  So, she applied to New York University, where she earned a Bachelors and a Master's degree.  Clearly, their loss.)
3.  She won the Presidential Medal of Freedom and the Congressional Gold Medal!
4.  She stood next to Martin Luther King Jr. for his iconic "I Had a Dream" Speech!  [Sooo cool]
5.  Obama called her "The Godmother of the Civil Rights Movement"!

For a little bit more about her, visit this beautiful article at

Take a deep breath.  What have you done today?  The above makes me feel like I have soooo much more to do in my life.  At the same time it overwhelms me and fills me with some feelings of frustration, it also gives me hope that it might take me fifty (50) more years to accomplish even a fraction of what Ms. Dorothy Irene Height achieved in her incredible life of ninety-eight years.

It reminds me that patience is so important and, lately, I have had so little.

1)  I found a mentor to help me with my mediumship.  I am so excited.  She is wonderful!
2)  This weekend I went to Ojai, Ca and Santa Barbara, CA.  It was AWESOME!  And I had one of the most delicious meals ever at The Blue Tavern.  It was also one of the most enjoyable with readings, laughter, and some old friends and some new ones.  KDubbs - my intention was right on!
3)  Remember, the Best is ALWAYS yet to come.  I don't say it enough.

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Tuesday, March 18, 2014


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Hi everyone!  I've noticed that I have been very serious of late.  Despite the fact that I have crazy dreams from time to time -- an incredible and much needed break from the realities of this life.  For example, last night I dreamt that Anne Hathaway and I were the best of friends and both she and Mandy Moore came to my surprise birthday party (September 25th) at my parent's beautiful lake house in New Hampshire.  Oh did, I mention, we arrived in a Lamborghini!!  Clearly, my mind has some fun when I close my eyes and rest in my never-never land.

Lately, I have been so serious.  When you are so serious, I believe we miss things.  We miss opportunities. We miss witnessing beautiful things.  This morning on my way to work, for some reason, I noticed the sweet things on the road.  I witnessed cars waving other cars into their row in extreme traffic.  I noticed the crazy people walking around the gayborhood.  Lastly, I noticed the various people in their cars bopping along to their favorite tunes -- like myself.

I've just been too damn serious of late.  I know that, eventually, I will find the means to be able to write my books and practice my mediumship "readings" all the time.  This will come.  I've just been so darn frustrated that it's happening at a snail's pace on God's time and not my own.  I am taking some majorly deep breaths today.

For today, I decided to lighten up your load a bit.  Here are three friggin' hilarious videos.  Warning, you might cackle a bit, so close the door when you view these.

Born to Create Drama:

Chubby Indian Kid Dancing:

Rodent Pranks (no sound necessary):

1)  Trixie Van Goat (my 2-year old Nigerian Dwarf Dairy Goat) will be having kids within the next 3 weeks.
2)  As an update to last week, the Company finally paid me the full outstanding.  Huge sigh of relief.
3)  Email me at to schedule your "Reading" while I am still practicing and prices are low.  This can be done over Skype or Gchat as well.

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Monday, March 10, 2014


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Last week I did something I probably shouldn't have done.  I pride myself on making the absolute best decisions.  I research every option.  I think about all of the outcomes, the repercussions, and the feelings.  At the end of the following day, if I still feel "good" about the choice, then I know I made the best choice for me.  This is how I usually make all my decisions.  A little bit of heart.  A little bit of mind.  Sounds balanced, right?

Ahhh...the life of a consultant.  It's usually very fun and convenient.  As most of you know, it can be feast or famine.  When it's feast, life is marvelous.  When it's famine, it's not so nice - traveling is scarce, dinners are cheap, and life is definitively less free.  

What happened?  Seven months is a long time to be constantly waiting for payment, but that was my situation.

For seven months, I had been waiting for payments from this one company I chose to contract with from late August through late December.  Just to give you an idea, I waited fifty (50) days for my first payment.  Every two weeks thereafter, it was a constant battle to get money and, supposedly, I was making some good money with them.  However, I wouldn't have known, because they were basically paying me a week's worth of wages every two weeks, which always kept me in the red.  Not fun.  Scarcity was my life and I felt trapped.

With regard to this situation, I did seek advice from friends and family members.  They all said basically the same thing: 1) Stop working for them until they pay you; 2) Get another job; and 3) You're never going to get your money!

Understood.  But, I had hope.  I knew this Company would one day step up and do the right thing.  I knew they wanted to pay me, they just never had the funds to do so.  I mostly wanted to keep working for them because one of their clients was fabulous and, at some point in the future, there might have been a great full time flexible potential with said client.  So, I stayed through the first of this year.

Around that same time, they sent me a check for a substantial amount of money but requested that I not cash it until they gave me the green light.  Two weeks later, I thought I received the go ahead to deposit.  Turns out, there was a little miscommunication and, as a result, they needed me to deposit some of that money back into THEIR account.  I was beyond irritated, but I figured since they still owed me a significant amount of money, it would show some good faith and understanding toward their situation.  (At that point, I believe I should have taken the money and ran!)

I spoke to my father about the above-mentioned situation and he was very pleased with how I handled that situation.  He thought that my long-term strategy/foresight was in-tact and that I had made an adult decision.  Woohoo!  I always LOVE to hear that my parents are proud of my decisions. 

This time around, however, not so much.

Approximately four weeks ago, they mailed me my final check for the outstanding amount of money, once again, with the understanding that they would give me the green light to deposit the check.  They trusted me.  It was torture holding onto that check for those couple of weeks.  Again, I sought advice from friends and family.  The consensus being go to the bank, and, if the funds are available in the account, deposit the check, once and for all, and be done with it.  

BTW, they weren't giving me any updates until I started texting/emailing them every other day. When they finally got the hint, unfortunately, it was empty words after empty promises after empty emails after empty texts.  "We're getting money in any day now!" or "We're just waiting on a couple more checks."  I wanted with all of my heart to believe them.  I imagine they wanted to be as done with me as I wanted to be with them.

I was fed up.  I had had it.  I therefore visited the bank a few times over the past week, and finally, last Tuesday, the bank advised that there were enough funds in their account to cover the check.  In a moment of complete desperation and vindication (or so I thought), I deposited the check.  It felt weird.  Though I felt strongly that I had finally made a stand for myself, simultaneously, I also felt kind of icky.  This was a little out of character for me.   I was angry.  I was at my wits end!

I kinda wish that I could have stepped back from the situation and asked myself what would Jesus do or what would Buddha do?  Yo, I consider myself to be a very spiritual person, but sometimes, you just gotta do what you gotta do, right?

The next day, the Company, clearly, was not very happy with me.  A surprise to me, they advised that they had gone negative in their account.  They wrote some not-so-nice words to me, attacking my character and my professionalism.  I found this incredibly ironic given my past seven months basically begging for money over and over.   What was I thinking working for them for so long?

It was later that day when I spoke to my parents on the phone.  They both listened to my story.  My mother was happy that the situation was now done and suggested I start to put this horrid incident behind me.  My father, on the other hand, was silent.  Uh oh.  I knew what that meant.  Having been down this same road various times himself, he was not overly thrilled with my moment of desperation and thought I could have handled the situation better.  It was clear when he said, let me know if the check clears, that this certainly was not his first time at the rodeo.  He knew better and he expected me to know better.

Long story short.  The check bounced.  I accrued more fees.  My dad was right!  Oh what fun!  Apparently, they needed to cover other expenses instead of me.  No comment.

The point here is...perhaps when we are feeling extra desperate, we could all take an extra moment to consider what will make our father/mother/nephew proud.  That just might save you the hassle.  It just might save you some fees and it just might save you their disappointment.

I really do believe I am a good person.  Hell, I think I'm a fantastic person.  I am kind to others, honest, sincere, and genuine.  I guess this week's lesson to myself is that I am human too.  We all make mistakes.  I probably should have waited one or two more weeks.  Oh well, right?  We live and learn.

When I'm at the gates of heaven (or whatever you like to call it), something tells me I am not going to be thinking of this Company and my moment of desperation.  Call it a hunch!

1)  Re: Malaysia Flight 370.  My thoughts and prayers are with the family and friends.  I'm just curious, however, why hasn't a famous medium come to the scene and offered their services?  Perhaps I'm a little partial, but still, they could definitely help out!
2)  With regard to the above situation, the Company still tells me they are going to me as soon as they have the funds available.  Learning my lesson, I have now given them until the end of this month to pay me, otherwise, I will seek legal action.  I am enthusiastic to sue two attorneys.  I have never lost a case yet!
3)  I also always want to make my mother proud and my nephew proud.  Does anyone else feel that way?

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Monday, March 3, 2014


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If, in theory, we are what we eat, then don't you think it stands to reason that, we are what we think and say?  I know, it's a bit scary, right?  Just given my own vernacular and my own though patterns, I have now decided to focus on changing what thoughts I think and what I say to people.

I used to think this type of stuff was all foo-foo and mumbo-jumbo.  However, over the last week or so, I've found that my energy/spirit is a little bit happier, a little bit more hopeful, and a little bit more playful due to the small shifts in thought and speech.  And who doesn't want that??

Think about this:  If you are constantly stressing over finances, where is the hope in that?  Where is the happiness in that?  And where is the playfulness in that?  Believe me, I've had my struggles over the past few months with financial stresses indeed.  I have slowly started changing my obsessive song-and-dance with regard to debts and bills, and I must report that things have started to shift for me.  Suggestions and ideas to save money have magically appeared and/or happened AND my spirit is a wee bit lighter and more jovial.  Let me assure you, it didn't just happen over night.  Nope.  This is definitely a practice, and, if it takes 28 consecutive days to form a new habit, I'm approaching the finish line.  I hope.

If you consider this concept from a manifesting perspective and, we can agree that, right now, are manifesting our future paths based upon our current thoughts, emotions, and actions today, then, I would say, the majority of us are screwed!  Let's slow down, become more aware, and REMOVE the negative chatter and banter amongst ourselves and our friends.

Here are some tips and tricks to help get us all started:

1) Watch your Language!
    A) Stop Should'ing on Yourself!   Remove the clutter and judgment in your quotidian tongue.  No more Shoulds.
    B) Trying.  Trying is stupid!  Instead of trying, just do it!  Instead of "I'll try and make it tonight for dinner."  How about "I'll do my best!" or, god forbid, "I will be there!"
     C) I cannot wait...!  No more, I can'ts!  How about I'm excited to, or I am ecstatic for?  Me, myself, and I am certainly guilty of this lingo on a daily basis especially when I say I cannot wait to have children or  I cannot wait to be on the NY Times Best Seller List.  How about if I say, I am sooo excited for children or I am sooo exited for the day when I'm on the NY Times Best Seller List.  Though perhaps insignificant to most, this tiny new little version has more power than it had previously.
    D)  I'm sorry.   I say this all the time.  Some have said, it's like apologizing for your existence.  I apologize for EVERYTHING!  Bumping into someone.  Speaking over someone.  Blah-Blah.  As of three days ago, I am no longer apologizing for everything.  It is not all, but I'm doing it!
     E)  Have to vs. Get to!  While we are on the subject of watching your language, let's not forget the good old, "Ugh...I have to do laundry tonight" or "I have to stop by this party for two hours on Saturday."  It denotes a lot of dread, and I love how we believe that by stating the above-mentioned phrases, we are going to shift the energy and have a great time.  (Note the sarcasm).  You never know what might happen with the laundry.  You might find a twenty dollar bill in your pants.  (I love it when that happens!)  Or, you might go to that party and meet your next someone special.  Instead, perhaps say, I "get to" or I "look forward to".

At the end of the day, the above tips/tricks may sound like little changes, but, I assure you, they are not.  Do it (I was going to say, Try It! - Tsk Tsk!) for one week and let me know the results whether amazing or not-so-amazing!

2) Be Careful What You Think today!
Be careful what you think today, 'cause it may haunt you tomorrow and the next day and the next day and so on.  It is a proven fact (spiritually anyway) that the thoughts that you are thinking today effect the thoughts, moods, and energies of tomorrow, the next day, and beyond.  Start thinking better thoughts NOW!

That said, we are human, after all.  We will all become frustrated and impatient from time to time.  Do you have to stay there (in that mood) or vacation there?  How quickly can you let it go?  How quickly can you shift your own thoughts?

3) The Best is Always Yet To Come.
I know I say this again and again, but it's definitively the one thought that always brings me a ray of sunshine-hope.  This phrase recognizes the present (where I am) yet it infers tomorrow is a new day.  Start repeating this to yourself and see where you land.

Confession: I have my days of utter frustration and impatience, still.  Duh!  The thought that usually helps shift the money-pit mood is thinking about the future and what I look forward to and, truly, that has made quite a bit of difference in my life...or at least for the past few weeks.  

1) The Monday morning glum wasn't so bad this time around.  I could feel the icky feelings percolating but there was no way I was going to let them out today.
2)  As for my journey into Mediumship, I am still practicing, but no longer doing freebies.  After three and a half hours with a great man (well...him and his late father), the other night, I was a little exhausted.  Contact me if you or a loved one of yours might need a "reading".
3)  If you have time to read a five-minute feel good article about a boy-going-blind's bucket-list story, read here.

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Monday, February 24, 2014


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Mondays.  Sometimes.  Suck!  

Can I get an Amen?

It was about four am when I switched positions this morning still reeling from a fantastic weekend.  However, not three hours later, when the alarm went off, at 7am, the first thing I felt was a large feeling of dread.  Ugh.  
I hope it happens to all of you too (sometimes).  I really hope so.

Today, I woke up and haven't really been able to shake the feeling that I am NOT supposed to be where I am right now.  I understand universally I am exactly where I am supposed to be, but I definitely didn't feel that this morning.  I also know that I'm on a slow and pragmatic journey right now.  As most of you know, I am looking for my plan B (full time position in HR), in order to successfully be able to do my Plan A (writing and expand my "intuitive" coaching and mediumship passion/business).  I grow frustrated from time to time. Patience is very hard for me these days.

I am usually much better at overcoming my dreadfulness emotions and quickly squash them by believing that something wonderful and fantastic is coming my way.  I mean, I think I deserve it.  For some reason, this time, I just can't shake the feeling.  As I was thinking about blog ideas, I thought what a better way to help other sufferers from the same dreadfulness as I have felt all day.

So, if the regular positive self-talk doesn't help, try one of these :

1)  Make a Mental List of Recent Accomplishments.
We all have so many forgotten or under-appreciated daily accomplishments.  We also have all finished gynormous tasks and have taken them for granted.  Make a list of them.  See how they stack up?  And up!  And up!  Sometimes even the smallest accomplishments like gathering all my tax information yesterday can seem like a huge win!

I wrote a book and published it exactly twelve months ago.  Can that still count??  I've only sold about 300 copies, but it's better than 50, right?

2)  Make a Mental List of Things To Look Forward to.
My mom actually suggested this one to me.  Don't forget about that weekend trip to Ojai on the horizon, or a great dinner with a friend on Thursday night.  We all have so many great and exciting things to look forward to, right?  This works fast and even writing about it has helped me feel a wee bit better.  Do it!

3)  Appreciate Friends & Family.
This might speak to you now, or it may not.  I have a totally scrumptious nephew, M, three and a half years old, that recently admitted to his father (my brah-in-law) that I was his BEST Friend.  Um...that makes me feel many things simultaneously.  First, is how effing adorable.  Second, is how much do I adore that kid. Third, is I live 3000 miles a away from him, how can I possibly maintain that status for the remainder of his life?  All of which are completely manageable issues to have, right?  Relish in the love and adoration of your friends and loved ones, especially those under five years old.

4)  Be Grateful for Anything...
I am grateful for House of Cards - Season Two, The Walking Dead, and my little goats.  I am grateful for RuPaul's Drag Race, which actually starts this evening.  I am really happy that someone over at Merriam-Webster's online division decided to have some fun today and showcased the word "SASHAY" as the word of the day.  If you don't watch the show, it is what RuPaul says at the end of every episode to dismiss the last place Drag-testant after a grueling "Lip Sync for their Life" dance-off.  Ru-Mazing!  It's definitely the little things.

5)  This is Temporary!
Other than death and taxes (which I'm doing tomorrow - wish me luck), there is no permanency to anything. I repeat "Nothing" is set in stone in your life.  This always makes me feel better.  That way, I know that little by little, my circumstances will change - 'cause it's inevitable.  This thought gives me so much hope when all other tactics fail.  It truly is the light at the end of my long, dark tunnel.

6)  Reach out for Support.
This is something I never want to do.  I don't like to show anyone weakness - EVER.  This is probably one of the biggest "improvement" areas of my life.  Meaning, I need to work on it!  I really try everything else prior to reaching out to a friend, a boyfriend, or a co-worker.  This is my last ditch effort prior to jumping off the proverbial cliff.  Friends are there for a reason.  Use them!

BONUS:  Take a moment to think about your PETS.  Think about the GREAT pets that you have had and the AWESOME ones which are yet to come!  This always brings a smile to my face.  :)

Now, even after you do all of the above, it is still not a guarantee to feel better.  For me, writing this blog definitely made me feel loads better and I appreciate the platform and creativity to be able to do so.  For me, it's all about hope and looking toward a Spectacular 2014.  Good luck to everyone!  Happy Monday!


1)  As of yesterday, we have confirmed that Skype/GChat sessions with people is a completely viable way for our deceased love ones to come through.  So, let the Skype/Google Chat readings commence!
2)  Big Shout Out today to my bestie, Heather, who is my number #1 reader of the blog.  She always reads my blog the instant she receives it.  I love you.  You're McTastic AND McRad!
3) This morning, I came across an article: 13 Reasons why Baby Goats are the Greatest Things since Sliced Bread on BuzzFeed.  You can also click on the link below to see it.  Some of you have experienced these cutie pies first hand with me!  This is an actual picture of my Vincent (Vinnie) Van Goat at about seven days old.  Yum!

"13 Reasons why Baby Goats are the Greatest..."

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Tuesday, February 18, 2014


Cirque du Soleil - Totem - Go See It!  NOW!
This show is awesome!  I have seen plenty of Cirque Du Soleil over the past fifteen years, and this was definitely one of my top three shows.  It is jam-packed.  It is fascinating to watch.  And, it is a great time had by all.
The context.  For a Valentine's Day present, my new bf and I took ourselves to see this incredible show.  After leaving Totem, I couldn't help but think about the lessons I learned from the spectacular.  I wish I had learned those big and simple ideas in high school.  Why didn't they teach me this at my Moultonborough Academy?

I don't want to ruin too much for you, but I highly recommend you run (don't walk) to see Totem when it comes to your geographical area.

1) With teamwork, dedication, and focus, WE as humans, can accomplish ANYTHING! 
     There were some beyond belief performances where teamwork was necessary to achieve their mind-boggling results.  It reminds me that as hard as it may be to ask for help sometimes, we can accomplish so much more together with those around us.

2) Laugh whenever possible!
     Les-bi-honest, it is a circus after all.  We can find laughter even in the darkest of moments.  Laughter is great for the heart, mind, body, and soul.  I believe that laughter heals.

3)  Practice makes perfect!
     There is no way you can be a performer in a production like Cirque du Soleil without years and years of practice.  I mean, these performers were out of this world and extraordinary.  It reminded me that without proper practice, you can never master anything in your life.

4)  The show must go on!
     There was one mistake, rather almost fumble, in the show that I caught.  Again, I don't want to ruin too much, but there are these Asian unicyclists.  Bottom line, they were catching bowls on top of their heads in all crazy and silly positions, at various velocities, and from all directions.  One of them caught the metal bowl with her hand (it was at least super close to her head) and quickly placed the bowl in the correct and accurate position.  The audience was soo into it that we all made that "ooooh" "fumble" noise, but instantly forgave her.  After all, she was on a unicycle, pedaling with one foot, and simultaneously throwing and catching bowls.  She was a rock star.  This fantastic Asian performer shook it off instantly and then went on to perform the finale ... flawlessly.  It was crazy good!  We could all learn a great from her "fumble" - don't you agree?

5)  Recognize the beauty all around you in life!
     I know, I know, it's a little gay in all senses of the world, but it's the truth.  None of us stop and smell the roses as often as we should.  It reminded me that we can all move a little slower in life and we can all enjoy the beautiful, absolutely stunning home, we call Earth.

6)  Love like you are skating FAST on a tiny elevated platform!
     Another spoiler alert.  In this act, my favorite, Cirque du Soleil went old school with roller skates.  It was a fantastic pas-de-deux (a dance performance with two protagonists) representing the courtship of love, relationships, and life.  Did I mention that these two performers were on a round 6' X 6' raised platform, spinning at an alarming rate?   Those two characters had no fear whatsoever.  This reminded me to LOVE fearlessly.  Just how we need to dive into love!  (I don't think I breathed through the entire act - it was that scary)  Hmmm...just like love.

7)  Strive for excellence ( to hell with mediocrity )!
     Mediocrity is for the birds.  When you strive for excellence, everything around you shifts.  Excellence is where the challenges arise, where the journey intensifies, and where the outcome is all that much sweeter.  Life is a marathon, not a sprint.  The same with excellence.

In high school, and I paid attention, I believe we are all missing what I call a "Life Skills 101" course.  My course would teach among other life lessons: goal/objective setting, analysis, decision-making, and all of the above.  It's too bad most of us graduate high school without learning the aforementioned lessons.  Albeit, they are a bit more esoteric, but high school is there to give us a foundation, is it not?
I don't know about you, but I definitely need more culture, amazement, and live death-defying art in my life.  I look forward to my next show, dance performance, or spectacular.
Final Thoughts:
1) The biggest news is that the fabulous Trixie Van Goat (Vincent Van Goat's sister) is pregnant.  I will keep you updated and will obviously send pics when available.  Their gestation period (for those enquiring minds) is regularly 3.5 months.  It will be soon!
2)  For some reason, it seems that February 17th is a huge day of Aquarian birthdays.  Shout out to my twin cousins, Hailey and Hannah...and my bf from high school, Heather.  Happy Birthday to everybody else as well!
3)  Courage allows the successful "woman" to fail - and learn powerful lessons - from the failure - so that in the end, she didn't fail at all.  -- Maya Angelou

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Monday, February 10, 2014


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How was your weekend?  My weekend was exhausting.  This weekend, I was just doing my thang, at one of my best friends' Baby Shower.  One of our best mutual friends planned the incredible, delicious, and elegant event -- and I was just the bitch!  Honestly though, I did whatever was necessary.  Set up.  More bottles of champagne?  Hosting?  Strike down.  Clean up.  Yes, it was exhausting.  Know this, however, I did it because I would do anything for both gals:  the pregnant one or the event planner.  Anything. 
They are my bosom buddies.  They are dear friends.  We have lived through many experiences, good and bad together over the past eight years.  I am honored to call them best friends and I am blessed they are in my life.
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So, how do you know you are a good friend?
Here are SEVEN ways you know you are a good friend.
1)  Their Mother Loves You!
You can feel pretty confident that you are being a good friend when their mother, whenever she sees you, shares with you just how special you are with a warm and sincere embrace.  It doesn't just stop there though.  The mother continues and tells you what a great friend you are, how blessed you are to have each other, AND confesses to you that she (the mother) doesn't worry about her daughter/son as much because she (the mother) knows s/he has you!  So sweet.
2)  Family Contacts. 
I believe you know you are a good friend when you have cell phone and home phone numbers for not only the mother, but the father, the sister, the spouse, and his/her bridal parties.  Doh!
3)  Good News Travels Fast! 
I love it when I am at a party and mutual friends of the "hosts" come up to me and say, "So...Tell me about this new boyfriend of yours??"  At first, I'm like, "Huh?  How did you find out?"  But then, I'm excited and happy that my friend is sorta-bragging about me.  It's a huge compliment, so just go with it!
4)   A Party?  What Can I Do To Help? 
As soon as your bestie tells you about their upcoming party, shower, etc..., you just WANT to help them in any way possible.  You want to attend and enjoy their bachelor/bachelorette parties, weddings, and showers, but you also want to make their lives easier in the process, right?  That is, in my opinion, a true friend.
5)  FEEL lucky and TELL them so As Often As Possible.
It's easy to forget how valuable these people are.  It's easy to take our friends for granted.  Whether we text/FB on a daily basis OR, because of distance, they are the type of friend that whenever you pick up the phone/Skype, the "bond" makes it seem like no time has passed -- both are gems.  Both are cherished.  I don't think most of us realize how lucky we are to have each other in this life.
Lately, I have done some "readings" where young friends have committed suicide or been taken too young.  I have learned some interesting things (I feel another blog coming on...).  The people sitting across from me, no matter what happened, always want to make sure their friends are SAFE and HAPPY.  Their deceased loves ones seem to validate this automatically - always and without prompt.  Bottom line, as often as you can remember, share just how lucky you are.
6)  Mean What You Say!
Over the years, I have noticed that sometimes we say things, but don't really mean them.  For example, if a friend is in a sad place, I've heard people haphazardly comment, "Call me anytime, day or night, and I'll come over!"  On very few occasions, have I actually heard of people actually going over at 3am.  I do it for my friends and when they share those beautiful offers, I expect them to mean it.  Lesbi-honest, if I call my friend at 3am, I'm probably not in the best place, right?  Be there, whenever, wherever!
7)  No judgments!
This is sometimes challenging... to say the least. Some friends (like myself) need to learn the hard way.  While I appreciate unsolicited advice and suggestions, if I am sharing anything, I do NOT want to sense any judgments -- at all.  No matter how messed up you think a decision is, it is NOT your decision to make. Yes, it's definitely hard to watch someone you love make stupid/silly choices, but it's their journey.  That poor mistake in "your" eyes, might lead them to their greatest triumphs and learnings.  We can only hope, right!  Be calm.  Be patient.  Disagree if you must, but there can be no judgments attached.  Besides, who doesn't want to miss a chance to tell their bestie, "I told you so!" and then drop it and move on.  That can be fun too!
So, are you a good friend, according to Seth E Santoro?  There are many many more attributes.  I just wanted to share those which came up for me over this past weekend.
1)  I had a BLAST this past weekend and caught up with some good friends, good acquaintances, and made some new friends.
2)  Do you "pray" or "TALK" with God / The Universe / Allah?  I have just started to talk with my version of God lately, and I know I feel better.  I think my "prayers/hopes/questions" are being answered...and even if the answers come from me, I still feel better.
3)  I forgot that in Ecuador/South America, this Friday is not only Valentine's Day for Lovers, but also it's a wonderful day to celebrate Friends.  So, this week, I am celebrating my friends!
4)  The Walking Dead...?  Are you watching?  You should be!

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Monday, February 3, 2014


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Yes, it's been a while.  That is completely true.  Forgive me!

Yes, I have given my word that I would write a blog soon!  It's time.

It's been a crazy two months with lots of ups and downs.  I won't bore you with details just yet, but let's just say that there has been little inspiration to write...anything.  Even my books have suffered a little bit.  Now, that's all going to change.

Without further ado, here's what I learned "THE HARD WAY" in 2013:
1)  How-To Recognize RED FLAGS for Potential Partners
    Quickie:   You all know what I'm talking about, right?  There were a lot of broken hearts...usually mine however.  It has been a challenging road, but I am almost certain that I can now catch the "red flags" associated with persons who carry a great deal of baggage.  Ultimately, I want someone who's baggage is as light as mine.  That's hard, especially... these days.
2)  How I Learned to Re-Create my Parents Relationship in HEALTHY WAYS
    Quickie:  With tons of therapy and self-work, I now recognize that I was attempting to re-create my parents' beautiful relationship in any way that I could -- even if it was destructive and unhealthy.  No more!  Thank God! 
3)  How I NEED to RETURN Home 4X Per Year
    Quickie: My nephew is the COOLEST three-and-a-half year old in the world.  It makes me so unbelievably happy to be around him, play soccer with him, laugh with him, etc... And now, with my new niece, I want to be a solid, stable, and dynamic part of their awesome lives.
4)  JUST BECAUSE someone may have more years of experience, doesn't mean their actions/behaviors are necessarily correct AND Two wrong-doings don't make a right-doing!
    Quickie:  This was one of the hardest lessons I learned this year.  I lost a very dear friend because we were both stubborn and emotionally stressed.  I did wrong.  This person did wrong.  Two wrongs definitely don't make a right.  Hopefully, forgiveness will be forthcoming in 2014.
5)  The ONLY way to LOVE is...HARD.
   Quickie:  I think this is pretty self-explanatory.  You must give love and TONS of it in order to receive love.  I'm talking about good love.  Good.  Strong.  Love.  It took me all year to re-appreciate this lesson.
6)  How I NEED Payment Terms & Agreements with ANY company!
    Quickie:  As a consultant, it can be challenging AND it can, at unique times, be Feast OR Famine.  I experienced both.  Toward the end of last year, I entered into a working situation with a company and we did not have clearly defined payment terms NOR did we ever agree on the Consulting Agreement.  I was burned and burned hard.  I have learned my lesson.  Thank you.
7)  Accept the GIFTS Given to You...No Matter How Bizarre!
    Quickie:  My life is changing as we speak.  It's overwhelming and never a dull moment.  Corporate America is hopefully waning in my life - or soon to be.  Let the writing, mediumship, and spa/healing center adventure begin!
8)  I am NOT going to get Rich with a 9-5 job.
   Quickie:  I think this is pretty self-explanatory too.  You must be creative.  Always inventing.  Always thinking.  Hopefully, some of my decisions made from desperation the end of last year will prove fruitful in the coming months!  Fingers crossed.
All in all, I learned so much about myself this past year.  I pray and hope that I remember these lessons along my 2014 journey.  I want to sincerely thank all of my friends for their continued support, openness, and love to my crazy and incredible path in this life.  Amazing things are happening more and more!! 
1)  I must reiterate how grateful I am for all of the above lessons.  Some could have been easier to learn, but I have a special knack of learning the hard way.  I'm sure at least one person out there can relate?
2)  2014 will be the best year of my life.  I'm sure of it AND I will do everything in my power to make that happen.
3) And with The Walking Dead, RuPaul's Drag Race, and House of Cards back, I'm reeling!
4)  I think I may be falling in love with someone too.  It's all very exciting.  More to come soon!
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